Its offical

So today I have received my email from Sportz Blitz to advise that my finish date is the 24th June. Thats quickest I have ever had a response and to think we even had a long weekend in between. So that means no excuse. Must keep up the anti. Went to the gym today to do my swimming to be told, mm sorry you can only swim laps in the times allocated???? WTF!!!! So I pay for a gym membership which includes the pool but because I wanted to swim laps, (or my poor excuse for laps) I can't because its not in the allocated times???? Well this would be a good reason to not go to the gym but no not me, I jumped back into my car and off to the leisure centre I went and paid to get in to do some sorry arse laps. I am really proud of myself cause I could have just given up as per normal thinking that the world is against me but nope not this time love.

On top of that I had a great day at work today and hope that it is a sign of what I should hope to have in the future. Yippeee for me.

I called Dazza to let him know I was going to the gym after work as he is still home on Easter holidays and found that my house was full of men. Friends have arrived from Queensland for a few days and along with them some of their family members have arrived to catch up as well. So they are delegated to the garage to do boy things, smoke, drink coke/coffee/beer, eat pizza and play guitar. I've had my Subway chicken salad bowl and am quite happy, except that they gave me a cookie of which I then ate on the couch infont of the tellie. Opps thats a mini goal dashed, better luck next time.

Ouchhhhhhh

So I forgot about the pain side of a workout :-( but as Kerryn would say ' a good sort of pain' as if there is anything of the such thing! So the toliet and seats are not my friend today, mental note to self, once sitting, remain sitting. So there is only 3 breaks throughout my working day so will pace myself. Today's exercise is a 35 minute swin non stop so will stop at the gym on my way home to complete that leg of the challenge, lucky I haven't cancelled the membership yet.

Food is always going to be a challenge for my as when I watch tv I always head for the snacks. You might say, don't watch the tv but I love my tv. I actually eat as something to do as well, so when I'm bored I eat, when I'm stressed I eat, you name it I always have something close by. This is the thing I need to stop. It's funny cause I know I'm not hungry. I will even go as far as eating my dinner, know that I am stuffed but 30 minutes later, cause I'm watching tv I reach for something else. Dumb dumb dumb!!!! I know what your saying.......tv comes up alot there but I love my 'week night' tv, could care less on the weekend as there is nothing on I like, however this week we are getting Foxtel so that will be fixed. I guess knowing that I have this 'problem' I will be more aware and set a mini challenge for myself to conquer it.

Mini Goal - no food whilst watching tv for next 2 days.
Mini Goal - drink at least 1 litre of water at work

My day 2

Ok so I know technically its not my day 2 of the challenge but thats how I'm going to be counting it.

Yesterday I started with a 4km walk which took my about 50 minutes, not too bad I think. Today was the circuit of weights for both upper and lower and I must say my legs are a bit wobberly and not just from the blubber but from the work I put into them today. Anyone can atest to the fact when it comes to 'lunges' I'm not the best but I did what I could. I even did push ups, girly ones, but I did them! So proud of myself :-)

We also planted a herb bowl, planted cherry tomatoes in a hanging basket and Dazza has planted a chilli/pepper mix. In no time we will have our own little herb and veggie garden. We are converting our pergola garden bed into a veggie garden which will act as a hot house and we have removed the plastic roofing over the side where the veggie garden will be so that the rain will be able to water it naturally. Next we will have new soil delivered to break up the clay in the earth and we will also plant some berries, ie. blackberries, raspberries, blueberries and strawberries. We will be soo self sufficent we will make ourselves sick ;-)

Lets start again

Ok so I have taken my 'before' photos and am about to start a new 12 week challenge, however my photos were taken a week ago and I haven't had time to have them printed until last night so will have to start with 11 weeks to go. Oh well, thats another challenge but I am not going to give up before I have even started.

So I have pulled out a copy of a program I brought from FitLioness some time ago........... actually about 3 years ago, a '6 weeks body blast' and started to re-work it to fit me. I find that if I don't have it spelt out so I don't have room to move, I just run out of steam so this time its going to be planned. If I run into trouble I will have to call upon old friend and trainer Kerryn to see me through. She was always a great inspiration and always knows what I need even when I don't.

So with my new sense of positivity, onward and upwards from here.
Start date offically is: April 1st

Height: 170 cms
Weight: 86 kilos
Chest: 99 cms
Waist: 97 cms
Calves: 42 cms
Arms: 31.5 cms
Thighs: 71 cms
Hips: 118.5 cms

So bring on week 4 results, can't wait.

all falls down.........

OK so I haven't been here for a couple of weeks and since then my walls crumbled down.

I had been feeling a bit sad, for no apparent reason but after the first day off from work it seemed that there was no going back. For some reason everything was too much and I couldn't stop crying but I didn't know why. That day I made the big decision to go my GP and open up about the thing I had been doing to myself to cope. After a while speaking to my GP it was decided that I would start taking some anti depressants and maybe start to see someone that I could talk to. The funny thing was I didn't think I had anything to talk about. But when you start to look deep inside, you know that there is stuff that needs to come out but you were just to scared to say them out loud. So 2 weeks later, I'm taking the little pills and am yet to see a difference, they say they can take anywhere from 3-6 weeks to see any effect.

I have also been seeing and hearing people talk about 'The Secret' and thinking its something that I need to invest in. That's investing in yourself. I have even noticed in small ways other talking about similar things, like on Kek's BFL thing Blog and at work with sales training, it started off about 'you' and how you attract certain things. Its everywhere and about time I opened my heart if I want what everyone else seems to have already woken up to. Enlightenment.

A walking we will go

So I'm on the later than early shifts, not the late late but the later than early. I really like my early shifts as I get to do more at night time, not to mention that the Biggest Loser is on at 7pm and I miss it for a WHOLE week! But got home about 8pm last night and Dazza had a visitor, but with our new found committment, off we went for a walk, took about an hour, to the supermarket to get milk, cat food and pita chips for me (naughty, ate the lot about 422cal) and back again but it does us all good I think. The only problem was that I had to carry all of the stuff back and for over a KM it starts to get a bit heavy. but you know what, when we got back I realised I already had cat food and probably enough milk to do us for another day. Oh well, we still needed the walk.
Little Miss Becky and Molly had their new pick and red harness's on, how cute. I will have to get a photo tonight.

So I'm back with a new zest

Ok so here I am again, with a joint mission.

1) to lose weight so that my BMI is below 25

2) to complete an IVF cycle and be as the image above

So I have started walking alot more, especially with my puppies and my other half Dazza. I have been trying to eat healthly and drink heaps of water, some times it works, and some time not soo much. Here I will be accountable for what I DON'T do and give myself a pat ont he back for the things I do suceed with.

I will currently be undertaking a IVF cycle on the 25th of march with Synarel to start with for about 9 days.