Darn those fairies

So after complaining about how lazy I am, the fairies came in last night to fix me up............... they broke the TV :(

I'm sitting here at the computer sad as I am in my size 16 Jacqui E jeans which I love and they are trying to suffocate me! it won't be long I hope before they are comfortable again. About this time last year my mum brought me the CIRSO diet book #2 and a Resistance Tube which I have never used :( so yesterday I went down to the library and photocopied the exercise sheet that came with it to make a nice appealing exercise chart to stick on the inside of my wardrobe door. Once I get it up I'll give you a nice photo.

So my journey is begining again, I even brought me some sweet potato.

What to do?

Last night I got got out some old mag's to look at and get some inspiration. I also pulled out my CSIRO book to have a bit of a read. I realised again that the dinner menu has stuff on it that I just don't eat, so what do you do? I'm not really good at following menu plans, I find them very restrictive, I am one of those people who needs to follow something so strictly that of course I'm going to fail. As soon as I have to waiver off the plan, I do a huge waiver, not a side step. That just sounded like a huge contradiction didn't it? What I mean is that if I am told to do something, I put my blinkers on and that's the only line I follow, once I come across a road block, say salmon with cous cous, that's it, that's me, I don't like any of that. So I might just step over that block but I seem to come to a road block the next day for dinner again as there is always something that I don't like. Why is it so hard? I want to loose the lower body weight but I am really stuck in the spot I'm already in, I can't see a way out. I am so lazy that the thought of going for a walk just makes me turn and find something else to do, the problem is that that something generally begins and ends on the couch. Even when there is nothing to watch I will just flick, whats wrong with me!

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Another thought also is: have you got any ideas for healthy snacks? I am a salt addict, I am more a savoury person than a sweet. My normal idea of snacks are plain chips, butter popcorn, licorise, corn chips with salsa, you get my drift, so anything you can think of in this type of area would be perfect.

A NEW RESOLVE

I know I've said it before but this time, I know is no different, but I'm sitting here feeling very uncomfortable, having thoughts of gastric bypass, knowing that its not the right way but maybe the right way for now. I know, I know slap me now.

I know also that I said I would walk to and from the train station but today I actually got a chance to drive my own car to the station. Its novel really, I haven't driven my car since starting this new job back in September as Dazza's been driving it to work instead to save on fuel (he has a V8 ute). So back to my point, no walking today. I will have to do some walking today after work, I do have to find a bank in the city today to do a deposit so that's a little bit, I know I'm dreaming to think that its anything that could help. Might go down to the local gym today after work and sign up for a 10 class pass.

Not much to say

So since my last post not much has been happening here, I did say I was going to start to do some exercise and as with most things I say, its gone by the wayside. But it must start.

I was went to my niece's grade 6 graduation on Friday night, what to wear, what to wear. Well thought just throw on some jeans and a nice top. Out came the size 16 Jacqui E jeans I brought off EBay, on they go, mmmmmmmmmmm how do I get the zip up? After some manipulation they went up but I thought how long for? So with that said, I think I will be walking to the train station daily, to and from, that way I get some extra exercise in. I haven't been walking the dogs due to my wrist as they pull a bit so I haven't had any exercise really. I really must get my butt moving, tonight I have washed the car and stress would have burnt some calories I think but other than that, big zero. I should be doing ironing now, sure that will burn some but I hate ironing. I haven't eaten much today except for 4 slices of white bread toast with margarine and peanut butter, not good I know but I will start to control it, after my large packet of Tangy chips, I promise :)

What else has happened ....................... well I almost brought a car again but my father talked some sense into me. Although I must admit, it doesn't take much to sway me from getting into $16000 in debt. I was really struggling with the thought of taking out a loan that goes for 5 years. After all Dazza's car isn't paid off yet and we still have 2 years to pay that. I hate that car loan, why would I do it again? But I almost did, I have to call Hyundai tomorrow to cancel the order. They are going to love me, twice now I have done that, next time when I really want to do it I will have to change dealerships :(

Well best go and start the bloody ironing, its not going to do itself. Once is done I will be really happy that they craps out of the lounge.

And the beat goes on

I haven't been around much of late, I have had to rest my wrist a while, been bored as hell :(

I have been trying to think of some exercise that's not exercise but is exercise, does that make sense??? Probably not but anyway. I was thinking Tai Chi but now that I have investigated it a tiny bit more on the net it may be harmful to my wrist with the actions. If anyone has some experience in this, please let me know if it would be ok with RSI.

Anywho, what else have I been doing, absolutely nothing. I have put on a few kilos being at home, I have tended to eat a few bags of potato chips over these last few weeks which are showing around my mid section. Dazza also weighed himself the other night and I weigh 200grams more than him but he is about 5 inches taller than me. Oops

So although I will not be starting anything big or rapid, I do want to lose some of this weight, I will be starting at 86.8 kilos. I can't believe I have let myself put on these extra kilo's again although I haven't gotten to my heaviest which was 89 kilos but well on the way if I keep this up. So will start off with walks, can't lift weights because of my wrist, so also can't skip rope, ride bike or walk dogs. I really need to lose some of this weight if I am ever to have a baby, so kick me in the arse if you see I've slipped, I will tell you, I can't keep my mouth shut :O

I'm also trying to cut down on the caffine which means no Coke and limiting coffee to only the mornings (try not to shovel in as much as I can before 10am) and eating more veg. Can you eat to much veg. For dinner I would normally make mashed potato (1 medium potato) and a heap of peas, beans, carrots and sometimes corn on the cob, I do put a knob of butter on it and tend to eat this all before I start on my meat of the day. I guess when I was dieting before I started to think of any food as evil so this is why I stopped thinking of food but look where it has gotten me now!

Not soo bad

So the Workforce Solutions came out to my home today, I'm going to call her 'Rehab Chick' from now on, she gave me some idea's about exercises for my wrist however they hurt and as anyone who knows me knows, I don't do anything that hurts! She advised me on some anti-inflammatory cream that I can use from the health food store, just a bit worried that the stuff from the chemist could hurt a growing fetus (if there is one in there). Will possibly meet with her at work on Thursday afternoon to reset up my desk, she is looking to get me a fancy new mouse setup which I have never seen before or even heard of before. And possibly reducing my hours for a while until I am back to speed. The funniest thing is that she wants me to start using the mouse on the left side, ever heard of uncoordinated??? That will be me with a left hand side mouse. Found some pictures of the new mice she was talking about so hopefully work will purchase for me.

Dazza has been talking about moving to Queensland and I have seriously been considering it. Number one is that he has advised that if I agree, I can be a 'stay at home mum' and not have to go to work, this sounds like bliss to me, but I wonder if I still get the same conditions if I don't fall pregnant???? I am a bit concerned about leaving my mum but then thought, well it's only a cheap airfare if brought in advance and I would be happy to send her a ticket for a week a month or a weekend a month if she wants. I would also love for her to come and stay once I do finally have a baby for a decent period of time, not only to help out but she has been waiting just as long as me, for there to be a baby in my arms. So no decision has been made as yet as to whether we will move or not but I will keep you posted.

What's been happening?

Its been a while since I posted and thanks Kerryn for checking in on me. My last post showed that the pud is slowing coming back on, not that I can say I've done much about it. I have now ended up off work with RSI so unable to spend nearly anytime on the computer without it giving me grief later on and even though I love you guys, I hate pain more.

I have also started to think more about having a baby so the exercise thing as gone out the window. I, like many of you guys I'm sure, bite off more than I can chew. My main thought in doing so is that if I am distracted by something else I won't realise that I am doing something else. In short, I go gungho at something or more than 1 something thinking that the other will keep be distracted from the other and both will get done. In reality it ends up that nothing is done.

So instead I have slowed down, concentrating on one thing, wait to see how that pans out before moving onto something else. I have however cleaned out my wardrobe, put about 19 items on eBay to sell, cleaned out my junk drawer in the kitchen along with my utensils drawer, its amazing how you end up with more than one of the same thing??

I have a person coming from Workforce Solutions tomorrow to discuss my RSI so that should be fun NOT! Other than that I am bored, hence the clean up as the doctor has told me complete rest of the wrist but that is really hard, I can't do cross stitch or anything fun, I don't have the car as Dazza's got that during the day, so I can't do anything but watch the same darn Foxtel shows that were on already. Frustrated.....................