Monday, April 26, 2010

Change? NO......

Not much has changed here in this household.

I am still the same weight give or take 500gms. I haven't made any effort besides join a gym about 6 weeks ago and still haven't been in for a session. Nothing really changes here.

Mum's been back in hospital having her C4/C5 removed. She is getting around quite well actually 2 weeks out from the operation, can you believe that she only had to stay in hospital for 2 days for that operation. In Thursday out Saturday morning. Amazing. Although she really can't do anything like standing up for long periods, can't drive for 6 weeks, yesterday when I went to she her surprisingly she was up and dressed and really to come to my place for a visit. Although she was exhausted when she got home, sitting up so much.

It makes me appreciate my body for what I have. Most of my siblings have a complaint of some type, my sister has arthritis, lung disease and graves disease, my brother has diabetes, my oldest brother had varicose veins and I have nothing except excess weight.

I see that Frankie over at The Fifi Dangerfield Files is going to give herself a 42day challenge, it got me thinking that as soon as I read that I wanted to join in. Although Frankie has some health issues different to me, it just spurs me on to have someone else going through the same thing at the same time. Allot of the blogs I read are now of women who have reached their goal and are now PT's so no one that I can really relate to anymore.

My goal for losing this weight is to have a baby, it has always been my goal but I never seem to achieve it. Is it because I don't believe it will happen or because deep down I don't want it to happen??? This makes me think allot. I actually think that its, I can't deal with the pain of coming to the conclusion that I may never actually have a baby no matter how much I try so why try? I'm not kidding myself, I am getting older, I'm 41 and a half. I know women can have babies at this age, I have seen it with my own eyes, but do they make the best mothers????

Anyway back onto the fitness route, I have joined a gym as previously mentioned although I haven't bothered to go, it was a cheap memberships so I grabbed it up. The down side, it runs for 3 years. That's right, you read right, 3 years. And now I have found another gym, Five Star, albeit a little further away is doing Zumba at $3.30 per session! I really want to try it but don't want to go on my own. I think I have talked my niece Miss Mandy into going, she has allot of weight to lose and what better than having fun with this cardio dance. My only issue is how late its on, week days at 9pm, I'm normally in bed by then :O its going to be hard, I've been doing 10 hour days at work and then to get to the class which will finish about 10pm, life is not going to be happy at my house.