Why do I do it to myself? Of course I can't be patient and wait for them to call me, I have to ring and hassle them out. Them is the assessment people. Then Dazza loses his job, again. Of course. That's 5 jobs in 5 months! What in the world is happening here???
So the call came that they wanted to start on the 4th of July! But that only gives me one weekend to finish my house to the way I want it to be when they arrive. Eek horror.
I changed my mind, I can't do this, ok I can but its going to be hard. I have changed the date of starting to the 11th so that it give me an extra weekend. Having said that, I really have wasted this Saturday by doing nothing.
Do I really want this or not?
Can I live with being child free forever?
Do I want to change my lifestyle, change the way I treat my animals (treated as children at the moment)?
I know I am looking forward to having the dogs outside more, to at least keep the floors clean longer and the dirt and dust out. Maybe the furniture will not be cover in dust from the heating system if the dirt isn't sucked into the roof heating?
Maybe its the rejection I think I can't handle so I sabotage myself instead, maybe I don't think I'm good enough to be a mum. I should just carry on being a critic of those you can be.
I went into Baby Bunting yesterday with my mum, I just looked at everything, I couldn't believe how many cribs there were on offer, not to mention the prams!!! Everywhere I looked there were pregnant women. I didn't know if to smile or just cry because I will never be one of them. If I had a thin body maybe that would make me feel better, to think I could have a baby without getting fat, but I'm already fat. Maybe I'll use my gym membership soon to at least lose some weight and get healthy so that if the Gods to grant me the honour of being a mum, I'll be fit enough to take it on.
So at the end of all that, the assessment is due to commence on the 11th of July, no telling when it will end yet, but I'm sure the process will be painful.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Oh my God will it ever end...........
That's the painting and tiling that is.
1 bedroom - to be babies bedroom & the laundry to go!
Yesterday we were meant to finish the painting and the tiling, even got up early and went and got a bit of extra grout, expect after picking mum up, I couldn't be bothered. I did have to go to Bunnings Warehouse where I saw, low and behold a paint that No Swimmers used in her kitchen to make it look like a million dollars. So I brought a can home to show hubby. He didn't think it would work but thought he would give it a go. That's when I was sent back to Bunnings to buy more! Since we are going to redo the sink area, there is no use painting the bench tops yet but the side panel and the front of the island was done and it has really transformed the kitchen already. I'm just trying to talk hubby into painting all of the cupboards, with our brushed silver handles on the hammered brown it will look great. It's what we were going to do for colour on the $10,000 kitchen we were quoted for anyway.
Still no word from the contractored social worker, lucky I guess, the fumes are overwhelming!
1 bedroom - to be babies bedroom & the laundry to go!
Yesterday we were meant to finish the painting and the tiling, even got up early and went and got a bit of extra grout, expect after picking mum up, I couldn't be bothered. I did have to go to Bunnings Warehouse where I saw, low and behold a paint that No Swimmers used in her kitchen to make it look like a million dollars. So I brought a can home to show hubby. He didn't think it would work but thought he would give it a go. That's when I was sent back to Bunnings to buy more! Since we are going to redo the sink area, there is no use painting the bench tops yet but the side panel and the front of the island was done and it has really transformed the kitchen already. I'm just trying to talk hubby into painting all of the cupboards, with our brushed silver handles on the hammered brown it will look great. It's what we were going to do for colour on the $10,000 kitchen we were quoted for anyway.
Still no word from the contractored social worker, lucky I guess, the fumes are overwhelming!
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Surprising
Well well well, guess you got a call today about an assessment?
It appears because of the back log, the assessments are being contractored out (is that even a word?) and we were contacted today to be advised that our file will be given to one of the contractors to do the assessment. Now we wait for them to make an appointment.
Now did I mention before that we are still painting and tiling????
best be moving faster :)
It appears because of the back log, the assessments are being contractored out (is that even a word?) and we were contacted today to be advised that our file will be given to one of the contractors to do the assessment. Now we wait for them to make an appointment.
Now did I mention before that we are still painting and tiling????
best be moving faster :)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
8 months
I looked it up, it's been 8 months, nearly to the day since we have had our completed paperwork to DHS, to wait for a social worker to be assigned and we are still 3rd! What's with that???????
Yonks and yonks
That says it all doesn't it? It's been yonks and yonks since I was last here, or so it feels. The surprise is I guess that as of the 1st of May we are still 3rd in line, that's been going on for a few months now. It feels like forever however it is good in some ways as this home improvement of the painting, tiling, light fittings, carpet, yard is taking forever to complete! I feel really depressed when thinking about it actually.
So I thought last week, what about a painting party? My sister in-law after all thinks that its easy, and she has 2 kids who would love to paint the trims. So tomorrow is the day they are meant to come over, we'll see............
On the bad side, Daz is again out of work. Only the 4th time this year. Yes I am freaking out about now. So I guess 3rd is good.
Work for me on the other hand is going OK, I haven't really applied for anything else. I think I should be content at the moment where I am and be happy to have a continuous job. I just wish that I had enough money to buy a few badly needed things like a freezer and new washing machine. My washing machine now lives outside in the yard as it leaks to much and the repair man said it is far to gone to fix it. So on the up side at least the hose makes it to the garden bed!
I wanted to also say congratulations to the proud new parents over on Swimming Against the Tide, may your little angel bring you all the happiness and joy you were looking for.
So I thought last week, what about a painting party? My sister in-law after all thinks that its easy, and she has 2 kids who would love to paint the trims. So tomorrow is the day they are meant to come over, we'll see............
On the bad side, Daz is again out of work. Only the 4th time this year. Yes I am freaking out about now. So I guess 3rd is good.
Work for me on the other hand is going OK, I haven't really applied for anything else. I think I should be content at the moment where I am and be happy to have a continuous job. I just wish that I had enough money to buy a few badly needed things like a freezer and new washing machine. My washing machine now lives outside in the yard as it leaks to much and the repair man said it is far to gone to fix it. So on the up side at least the hose makes it to the garden bed!
I wanted to also say congratulations to the proud new parents over on Swimming Against the Tide, may your little angel bring you all the happiness and joy you were looking for.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Just a bad blogger
I am such a bad blogger, I don't seem to find time to read blogs let alone update my own! I apologise in advance.
I have been still reading every ones blogs just not updating my own. Although I have been inspired by a few and have indulged into the gardening.
I have brought a few new plants and worked out why some of my drought tolerant plants have died ........ apparently for the first year they still need regular watering ????? Why call them drought tolerant then huh?
So some of the old were removed and so new plants planted, some water saving crystal kind of stuff added, removed some old tired looking pots and gave them a splash of colour. To my surprise the pots are already blooming :) (will provide some pic's later)
Then low and behold, the next door neighbour that I have been complaining about not leaving food for their animals when I have to feed them, which is about another 2 times since I last complained on my blog, have gone and given us their second hand Pioneer surround sound system and DVD player since they brought an new one! They apparently really love me taking such good care of their animals :) (should stop complaining about now)
Then we got another call from my niece to advise that the pavers I wanted were being delivered whilst I was at work. (her partner works at a paver manufacture). When I got home there were 2 pallets of 50x50 mm pavers on my natures strip. The kicker? FOR FREE! I counted them, 90 pavers!
And even better, Daz got a job. I don't think I mentioned before but Daz quit his job in January to do sub-contracting but then after about 5 weeks the work dried up along with the economy. So where he would put out 5 resumes and get 7 calls, he sent 10 resumes and all he heard were crickets in the background. So after a few trial and error's at a few work places, he has now won a full time job and starts Monday which will relieve some stress from the household.
Training and weight wise, well nothing has happened there, no surprises. I don't even have a battery in the scales. Daz has been a bit preoccupied with his weight over the past few weeks but nothing else.
I have been still reading every ones blogs just not updating my own. Although I have been inspired by a few and have indulged into the gardening.
I have brought a few new plants and worked out why some of my drought tolerant plants have died ........ apparently for the first year they still need regular watering ????? Why call them drought tolerant then huh?
So some of the old were removed and so new plants planted, some water saving crystal kind of stuff added, removed some old tired looking pots and gave them a splash of colour. To my surprise the pots are already blooming :) (will provide some pic's later)
Then low and behold, the next door neighbour that I have been complaining about not leaving food for their animals when I have to feed them, which is about another 2 times since I last complained on my blog, have gone and given us their second hand Pioneer surround sound system and DVD player since they brought an new one! They apparently really love me taking such good care of their animals :) (should stop complaining about now)
Then we got another call from my niece to advise that the pavers I wanted were being delivered whilst I was at work. (her partner works at a paver manufacture). When I got home there were 2 pallets of 50x50 mm pavers on my natures strip. The kicker? FOR FREE! I counted them, 90 pavers!
And even better, Daz got a job. I don't think I mentioned before but Daz quit his job in January to do sub-contracting but then after about 5 weeks the work dried up along with the economy. So where he would put out 5 resumes and get 7 calls, he sent 10 resumes and all he heard were crickets in the background. So after a few trial and error's at a few work places, he has now won a full time job and starts Monday which will relieve some stress from the household.
Training and weight wise, well nothing has happened there, no surprises. I don't even have a battery in the scales. Daz has been a bit preoccupied with his weight over the past few weeks but nothing else.
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