Thursday, August 09, 2007

What a couple of weeks........

So some of you may be wondering why I put the prayer on my blog? Well today was another tough one for me. I had been feeling down as you all know and felt like my depression was slipping back in. I was starting to cry for no reason and for every reason. I went to work to only just come back home and feel sorry for myself. Thought that I had better take my cat Meow to the vet but knew well and good what was coming. He has been ill of late and I had been putting off going or hoping that Dazza would take him instead so I wouldn't have to face it. So after a quick feel of the belly and trying to take bloods from him, we came home to only have to shove tablets down his throat until the results of the bloods returned. Well they did this morning and unfortunately all was not well. I did have to take him back today to be kind to him and to stop putting off the inevitable.

Meow was my first ever cat and we got him before we even got married. He was approx 17 years of age and very anti-social, just like his mum. We sat together allot today on the couch, something he rarely did, he had stopped eating and was losing weight rapidly. The last straw was in the last few days he has started to pee on himself, I couldn't work out how but maybe he was falling in it after doing it. In the end it appeared that it was just escaping his body and running down is back legs. It was a very horrible thing to see him go through. At least with the dogs it was really quick but to know for a day what I had to do, it was doing in my head. I know now that his is with Shelby and Chuck, buried in my yard but running around together up in heaven.

It still amazes me why we get pets to only have out hearts broken time and time again. They just don't live long enough and wish they would live forever with us or until our time was up.

7 comments:

Debstar said...

Sorry to hear you've had yet one more setback.

The worst is you look for them without even thinking and you can do that for weeks.

Give the dogs some extra hugs they usually know to give lots of love when its needed.

linda said...

Sue- we've had a number of dogs and cats over the years and have had to have them put down when they've become old and sick. It never gets easier I know. I try to be thankful that they've been loved so much that we can feel so sad and pained at their going. How awful if no one shed a tear for them after their devotion or company or whatever their strong point was! I still can become quite emotional thinking about each and every one of them. It's ok to feel really sad about Meow- in fact it is a good thing.

Kek said...

I'm so sorry, Sue. :(

You know that you did the right thing, painful though it was.

I still expect to trip over my poor old doggie every time I go out the back door, and he's been gone 6 months now. At least they live on in our memories...

Kristy said...

Sue you really are having a tough time at the moment. I am really sorry to hear about your cat. I have never had my own pet due to living in a unit, but it has always scared me at the thought of losing something that you become so attached to over time...

Maybe a non food reward would be nice. Take yourself to movies, have a massage or get your legs waxed...

Keep your chin up Sue and take care.
Kristy

Michelle said...

Sorry to hear of your loss, Sue. Pets give us so much happiness while they are around and its so hard when they leave. Chin up!

Hugs!

Livy said...

Oh Sue, I am right there with you. We only recently came back from holidays to find that our much loved cat Bella was missing. It has been over 6 weeks now, and I still miss her every day. I just wish I knew if she was alive out there alone, or if her life has ended. There seems to be alot of pet trauma happening to bloggers of late, I have just read about another 3 cats, and 4 dogs that have been ill!
I am so sorry to hear about your dear Meow, but it sounds like he had a good life.

ms_attitude said...

Sue, sorry to hear of your loss as well. We can give each other cyberhugs and be glad we at least had the joy of our companions. Yes, they are only here for a short time, but they give us infinite love and joy and we are all the richer for having had them in our lives.
Hugs to you
Caroline