MIA

Hi all, sorry I've been MIA for the past week, really don't have a lot to say at the moment. Since falling off the wagon starting with my niece I have stayed off the wagon. I have been back to the doctors and am back on the depression meds. So hopefully my momentum will build again and I will be again like the little engine that could.

I have been giving my life some thought also and am going to relax a little with my diet. I am constantly thinking about food, not what I want to eat next but the good and the bad. I think I once mentioned that I was going a bit crazy about food, considering all foods bad, even if just a plan chicken breast! I think that this could be the making of a eating disorder so thinking that I may just follow the old 'Weight Watchers' points system again, I have the books up to week 8 I think so will maybe do that. But again saying that, when I spoke to my mum about it, she asks why? 'your always on a diet' she tells me. 'Your just wide', thanks mum. I know that I should be happy with me but I can't be. Originally I thought I would just throw it all out and not do anything, just relax but without something to obsess about I find that my days are so long at work. When I'm obsessing my days same shorter as I fill my day at work with calls and in between I obsess. It all seemed good. What can I obsess about instead?

Kristy - I too have all of the 'Too good to be true' books, I found them good and even Dazza ate from them. I also loved your pictures, you are doing great, keep it up and you will be under 65 in no time.