Well, thats a nice how do you do

So I went to the chemist tonight to speak with the naturopath that they have there on Thursday nights for free to see if having any of the protein drink supplements would harm me with my medication and I had a bit of a rude awakening. Not that he was rude or anything but he did tell me I looked stress! Like how would he know, he doesn't know me or how I would normally look anyways right? So he then went on to tell me I have a slight problem with my thyroid?? What the, I asked how he could tell and he advised, 'from your left eye', it is protruding more then the right! Well thanks very much then. I asked some more questions like, what else would this effect, this thyroid problem? and he really hit the nail on the head, dry, itchy skin, tiredness, memory and the list goes on, of which it appeared most of them I could tick off.

So the solution??? Sea Minerals. I take 5ml a day, preferably with my evening meal. Let me tell you the measurement of 5ml shouldn't fool you. It tastes like crap. Any more and I would be vomiting it back up. This Sea mineral will also help with muscle growth and weight loss. So after paying out $31.95, I'll try the bottle and let you know what effects if any it has on me. Besides from losing all of my taste buds.

I'm just sooo tired

I can tell you after my free day yeserday, although I did go fot a walk and paid for it later with my poor hip, I can feel the exercise tonight already, as if i haven't exercised in a while. I must admit its been 2 days since doing weights and I have increased the reps a bit but poor by the end tonight I was glad it was over. I have started on splits with week so tonight started with legs & shoulders and also some cardio so I went for a brisk 25 minute walk after my weights. Lucky i didn't do it the other way around because the way I'm feeling I probably wouldn't have gotten to the weights.

Since my car played up yesterday and Dazza had to fix it when he got home from school, which I might add wasn't until 9.45pm, I was a little stressed about getting into my car today to go to work, so therefore it kept me up last night with the stress. This morning I couldn't even think about food as when I'm extrememly tired I feel really sick, so the weat bits came out at 10.40am for morning tea. Even dinner tonight was a chore to eat after my exercise, not to mention I still have to do the dishes and make my lunch with my left over dinner cause I couldn't be bothered eating it. I don't know is it just me or is eating after a work out not your fav thing to do????

Early to bed tonight and then I might get to break up my weights and cardio. Yay

Ahhhhh I'm finally here

Tuesday, also known as free day has arrived and I couldn't wait. I have it planed, take away chinese for dinner, lunch was left overs from dinner last night, breakfast was a egg on multigrain toast. So I was going to splurge but not too badly. Well that was the plan. Although it appeared the Gods had other thoughts for me today. It started off so well, get ready for work, go to the car, ooops can't open the car, try everything to get the door open, try the back door, try the passenger door, lean across front seat and try to pull handle, nothing would get the drivers door open! And to boot, I seem to have injured my hip in trying my hardest to get into the car to go to WORK. looking at the muscles above, I would have to say its my rectus femioris that is giving me the trouble. I thought it felt a bit better this afternoon and although I didn't have to exercise on my free day to day, I needed money for tonight when I ordered the chinese and since I couldn't get into my car, I thought l'd walk. Well by the time I got back home I can tell you I can sure feel him again! I must also admit since it was my free day I thought, why am I being so scabby with my free food, so brought my old fav and food group, 'licorise' and kettle chips. After all I am going to be home alone for most of the night tonight as Dazza has school. Whats a free day without some junk right????

So I'm about to pop some panadol and rub some deep heat on so that I'm right as rain to start again tomorrow.

Yay Tuesday is day off day!

Well I have made it to day 8, well tomorrow anyway. Tomorrow is offically my day off so can splurge and get take away although Dazza goes to school tomorrow night so might have to wait a long time to get some food.

I have now done 7 days straight of exercise, Kerryn will be impressed, and I'm still motivated. Altough this is not my record for motivation, i think it was 4 - 5 weeks with Kerryn training me. I still haven't weighed myself from the last time that I had Dazza remove the battery from the scales and when I asked for him to replace it for a weigh in today, he refused and told me to wait another week or 2. I guess it makes sense because if I haven't lost anything or not enough by my high standards, I will be back in the fridge no doubt.

I do have to work out some nasty but nice treats I can give myself without blowing the diet because if I do have even something small in the cupboard for a special occassion, you can be sure I will eat it until its gone. Something I will definitely have to work on.

I forgot to mention that the other day I received 3 Usana 'Macro Optimizers' in the mail that I had 'won' through the Beach House Roxburgh Park opening. I'm still a bit scared to eat them, with the little happy pills I'm taking and the carbs/sugar & fat content in them, I just don't know. They have a use by date of 10th may so will have to make my mind up sooner or later.

I'm feeling so good at the moment, I don't know if its from the exercise and diet or just from being content. But while I'm on a roll I'm going with it. I can tell you that staying up late just doesn't cut it anymore. Although in a previous post I said I felt about 22 years old, I'm a 'NANA' when it comes to late nights. So on saying that, its very late for me and I have to get my 'beauty' sleep, let me tell you I need heaps. Have to get Dazza up at 5am so nite nite.

Sad realisation of life

Today when i went for a walk to the supermarket cause I was feeling like takeaway instead of chicken I noticed something really sad. I walked past the police station on my way back and noticed a man pull up in a ute with his son. After a quick hug and grabbing his back pack which looked bigger than him, he must have been about 5 years old, they walked across the front of the Police station and then I turned back the man was driving away. The sad realisation is that he needed to drop of his very young son at a Police station to have mum pick him up. It dawned on my that all over the world today at about the same time, many parents are doing kid swaps. I swear if I ever manage to have kids and, God forbid, if Dazza and I split, I will never put my child through that.

==========================

On a better note, I did go to the supermarket and brought steak instead and am having steak, potato wedges in the oven (home made) and beans. Dazza of course is having steak and chips, no doudt with 'dead horse'.

==========================

Thought I'd add a picture of my version of Chicken Parma - consists of chicken breast, ham, salsa and lite tasty cheese ;-}

A new conclusion in my life

Today whilst on my walk, I had a good chance to think about my life. It feels like for all our married life we have been in debt or trying for a baby through natural, supernatureal and scienctific means. That is what it has come down to. I realised that I am 38 years old but feel 22. So why do I have to have a baby now. Why can't I go back to IVF when I'm 40 or 41 for that matter? I have decided that we will pay off our debts (except the home loan of course, I'm not completely mad) refinance our home and travel a bit. We have never really travelled although we did go to Bali, we also took our 2 neices at the age of 14 with us. So not really travelled together as a couple. And to top it off, I feel that I made the right decision because as soon as I said it to myself a NAB bank car drove past. That I will take as an omen. Call me crazy but I believe in all of those signs.

Before going back to IVF I want to have lost at least 10 kilo's if not all of my unwanted 20 kilo's. I want to appear in photo's and not feel ashamed or selfconcious as soon as I see a camera come out. I realised today that I don't have many photo's of my bother in-law, Jeff, who died at 33, nearly 4 years ago. Then realised that if I died today, dazza and my family would find it very hard to find any photo's of my that aren't at least 5 years old. That to me is a sad realisation.

So I will start a 'things to do' list on the side of this blog and keep a track of the things I want to do and the things I actually accomplish. First is to start to save for a holdiay to the States. I also have to get over the fear of dying in a terrorist attack before I can get on a flight. Pay off my debts and refinance the house. And finally go back to IVF once I have lost this weight to make it easier to conceive.

Boy I have really been thinking deep lately, don't know where thats come from :-}

I am just so amazed

You know I have been doing this plan for only a couple of days but I am amazed that after doing my second day of circuit training in 4 days my legs have recovered and today even when I got up I wasn't sore! That has just amaxed me. I even had the energy to go for a walk today, day 5, at about 5kms per hour. I did 4kms in 45 minutes so happy and not sore. Fantasic.

========================================

Today is my mum's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 66th MUM