Well its 10.53pm on New Years Eve, I am here alone at the moment with my terrorised dogs and cats, the fireworks started early tonight, maybe over an hour ago. Its strange to see a large Alaskan Malamute cower like a little puppy and the old girl Becky thinking she can fight them call if she barks loud enough, and where's Miss Molly, under my feet of course. She did try to get under the toilet while I was sitting on it!
'The husband' went swimming with his sister and niece's. I stayed here with his mum, I was going to go but my rear decided to get sick again :( Now his mother has left and I am here, alone with my fur babies.
The cats are doing OK, they were under my car when the fireworks begun, but soon rushed in, the fireworks sounded and looked so close, like they were next door. I hate to imagine how many terrorised animals will be lost by morning.
Its crazy that these people do not think about the bush fires that happened here not that long ago, and not that far from here. Today the temperature got to approx 42 degrees (108 F), very dry and windy, to think that these few moments of fireworks could possibly set off more fires, well it is just unthinkable but likely.
Tomorrow I will upload some of the pictures I took today of the newly finished/semi finished outside area. Still to get our large Buddha water feature, some Merbu screens, also putting in a spa and need to get some sort of cover for both ends of our pergola.
Anyway, it appears a bit quieter now, so might see if I can get the dogs to go to sleep.
See you next year in 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I read too many blogs!
I can't believe how many blogs I have in my blog role! Especially the diet/fitness side.
How can I truly read and digest all of this information when I can hardly write my own blog? I don't know but I just do. I have to have plenty of quiet which is why its soo good to do on a Sunday morning before everyone (meaning dogs, cats and 'the husband') are rousing from their lazy sleep in.
What did I get up to yesterday? Well I decided to paint our side fence, then we decided to buy some stones to go in front of the fence, put some planters in and some screens. So now I am awaiting delivery of the volcanic rock we have ordered, we will put in some pavers we already have to sit the planters on. I'm a bit sun burnt from the painting yesterday but I want to continue down the fence line and get more done. I can't find the camera so can't share photo's, will have to wait until its all finished.
Its going to be hot tomorrow, New Years Eve, finally. We will have a BBQ here with 'the husband's' family then head over to one if his sister's friends places who has a salt water pool to have a quite dip and be home for the puppies before all the craziness of the New Year's fireworks.
Did I tell you that we all got sick at Christmas? Just found out my sister was also sick, the only one who wasn't was my brother? Strange. Dad has been hit hard, he still has it, I went down to see him last night, poor bastard, but its a good weight loss diet I guess if we are looking for an upside :
How can I truly read and digest all of this information when I can hardly write my own blog? I don't know but I just do. I have to have plenty of quiet which is why its soo good to do on a Sunday morning before everyone (meaning dogs, cats and 'the husband') are rousing from their lazy sleep in.
What did I get up to yesterday? Well I decided to paint our side fence, then we decided to buy some stones to go in front of the fence, put some planters in and some screens. So now I am awaiting delivery of the volcanic rock we have ordered, we will put in some pavers we already have to sit the planters on. I'm a bit sun burnt from the painting yesterday but I want to continue down the fence line and get more done. I can't find the camera so can't share photo's, will have to wait until its all finished.
Its going to be hot tomorrow, New Years Eve, finally. We will have a BBQ here with 'the husband's' family then head over to one if his sister's friends places who has a salt water pool to have a quite dip and be home for the puppies before all the craziness of the New Year's fireworks.
Did I tell you that we all got sick at Christmas? Just found out my sister was also sick, the only one who wasn't was my brother? Strange. Dad has been hit hard, he still has it, I went down to see him last night, poor bastard, but its a good weight loss diet I guess if we are looking for an upside :
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
I'm back
Only because I can't visit my mum until tomorrow :(
So what has been happening? Not much really, same old same old, mum has been moved to rehab where she still is not very happy not to be home but its 1 step closer to home.
Work has been work, not all that happy in the new role, but will give it more time before asking to move back to the old role. Most people in my original area would be biting at the bit to get into this role because they don't have to talk on the phone or deal that much with people but I love helping and teaching people new things and interacting with others.
My weight has just about stayed the same which is better than it going up I guess.
Christmas was held at our place again, we had the full spread and everyone had a great day. I gave 'the husband' a leather reclining massage chair and a new mobile phone, he gave me a xBox 360 Kinect, of course to help my weight loss, except everyone except me was using it on Christmas day but we all got a good laugh in.
The day after Christmas a good few of us came down with a stomach bug, all courtesy of a very ill great niece, who threw up on me as she entered the house, so like flies, we dropped, mum in rehab at about 6pm, started throwing up, 'the husband' at 10pm and me following at 4am, I called around to the family members and another 5 had it! Great. So still a little gurgley at the moment but definitely on the mend.
I've emailed Allan again to join the world of the living back on track so hopefully my weight will more further down in the new year and I will be a happy camper.
On a sadder note, 'the husband' doesn't think he will be able to have time off to go to the US with me for our treatment, I'm hoping that will change or we may have to delay a little, I really don't want to be in a another country on my own, conceiving our baby, all by my self and be away for up to a month. Not much fun for either of us, its a country 'the husband' has always wanted to visit since he was a young child, it seems cruel that I would go without him. Fingers crossed it works out.
Anyway, off to wake 'the husband' and get his arse to work now.
So what has been happening? Not much really, same old same old, mum has been moved to rehab where she still is not very happy not to be home but its 1 step closer to home.
Work has been work, not all that happy in the new role, but will give it more time before asking to move back to the old role. Most people in my original area would be biting at the bit to get into this role because they don't have to talk on the phone or deal that much with people but I love helping and teaching people new things and interacting with others.
My weight has just about stayed the same which is better than it going up I guess.
Christmas was held at our place again, we had the full spread and everyone had a great day. I gave 'the husband' a leather reclining massage chair and a new mobile phone, he gave me a xBox 360 Kinect, of course to help my weight loss, except everyone except me was using it on Christmas day but we all got a good laugh in.
The day after Christmas a good few of us came down with a stomach bug, all courtesy of a very ill great niece, who threw up on me as she entered the house, so like flies, we dropped, mum in rehab at about 6pm, started throwing up, 'the husband' at 10pm and me following at 4am, I called around to the family members and another 5 had it! Great. So still a little gurgley at the moment but definitely on the mend.
I've emailed Allan again to join the world of the living back on track so hopefully my weight will more further down in the new year and I will be a happy camper.
On a sadder note, 'the husband' doesn't think he will be able to have time off to go to the US with me for our treatment, I'm hoping that will change or we may have to delay a little, I really don't want to be in a another country on my own, conceiving our baby, all by my self and be away for up to a month. Not much fun for either of us, its a country 'the husband' has always wanted to visit since he was a young child, it seems cruel that I would go without him. Fingers crossed it works out.
Anyway, off to wake 'the husband' and get his arse to work now.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Quick catch up
So some surprising things happened today....
I was moved positions in the call centre from consultant and help line to the administration team. Is it a good thing or not? This is yet to be seen. The person who was in the role, I believe was walked out the door just this week. I missed it completely. The call centre manager 'highly' recommended me, the group team leader highly recommended me, do they just want me out? My new team leader, well I have nick named her a long time ago as 'thee who walks in the clouds', she is really tall and doesn't seem to see anyone under her nose. I think she has only spoken to me only once in the tea room when I was with my previous team leader and then only today when she came over to chat about starting in her team tomorrow. I was a little worried about telling others in the call centre, you see they had applied for the roles previously and there was a reason why none of them got the role, this time, I hadn't even applied and I have it!
The other thing that happened today was about finding things out that are plain as the nose on your face, but you just seem to miss them. A really good friend and work colleague today surprised me with the fact that she couldn't afford to get presents for her children this year. I knew that she has financial issues, but I still didn't put 2 and 2 together until she walked back into the call centre teary eyed. It appears another colleague had asked about what she was getting her kids, when she heard, she had a discreet chat with our team leader. What was the result? Our management team decided to purchase Christmas gifts for the children as well as give her vouchers for the supermarket, for the movies and meals for the trip to the movies. It has really renewed my faith in humanity.
Mum is still really ill. She has gotten another illness while still in hospital, she is down and really flat. It worries me allot but I understand that I can not make her better myself however I will tell the doctors when I see something that I don't like in her care, after all, I know my mum and they do not know when she is off colour, if her speech isn't quite right, when she is speaking gibberish which indicates to me when she is really ill and possibly should be back in ICU. The count still is 4 blood clots, she has a filter in place now but the fact that she can not walk properly and doesn't look like it is going to improve any time soon. Mum will be released into rehab instead of just going home. Dad, he is being as stubborn as normal, he has his next operation on the 12th of January, hopefully after that he will feel as good as gold.
Christmas shopping for both 'the husband' and I are finished and tonight I finished with mum's Christmas shopping. Now I have to wrap everything, this I am not looking forward to. I will work all next week and then prepare for the 23 visitors we will have to the house of the course of the day, hopefully mum will be home to share it with us. I'm pretty sure that they will allow her home at least for the day. I'm also not looking forward to all of the cooking.
This year we changed our Christmas decorations, 'the husband' thought that silver was the colour this year, so all new deco's had to be brought along with a change in colours of the dinner plates, napkins and the like, its allot of work changing your full colour scheme but it looks like we have succeeded.
Well I think that I am all typed out for now, I'm looking forward to trying to read everyones blog, I apologise for not keeping up and commenting on all your blogs.
I was moved positions in the call centre from consultant and help line to the administration team. Is it a good thing or not? This is yet to be seen. The person who was in the role, I believe was walked out the door just this week. I missed it completely. The call centre manager 'highly' recommended me, the group team leader highly recommended me, do they just want me out? My new team leader, well I have nick named her a long time ago as 'thee who walks in the clouds', she is really tall and doesn't seem to see anyone under her nose. I think she has only spoken to me only once in the tea room when I was with my previous team leader and then only today when she came over to chat about starting in her team tomorrow. I was a little worried about telling others in the call centre, you see they had applied for the roles previously and there was a reason why none of them got the role, this time, I hadn't even applied and I have it!
The other thing that happened today was about finding things out that are plain as the nose on your face, but you just seem to miss them. A really good friend and work colleague today surprised me with the fact that she couldn't afford to get presents for her children this year. I knew that she has financial issues, but I still didn't put 2 and 2 together until she walked back into the call centre teary eyed. It appears another colleague had asked about what she was getting her kids, when she heard, she had a discreet chat with our team leader. What was the result? Our management team decided to purchase Christmas gifts for the children as well as give her vouchers for the supermarket, for the movies and meals for the trip to the movies. It has really renewed my faith in humanity.
Mum is still really ill. She has gotten another illness while still in hospital, she is down and really flat. It worries me allot but I understand that I can not make her better myself however I will tell the doctors when I see something that I don't like in her care, after all, I know my mum and they do not know when she is off colour, if her speech isn't quite right, when she is speaking gibberish which indicates to me when she is really ill and possibly should be back in ICU. The count still is 4 blood clots, she has a filter in place now but the fact that she can not walk properly and doesn't look like it is going to improve any time soon. Mum will be released into rehab instead of just going home. Dad, he is being as stubborn as normal, he has his next operation on the 12th of January, hopefully after that he will feel as good as gold.
Christmas shopping for both 'the husband' and I are finished and tonight I finished with mum's Christmas shopping. Now I have to wrap everything, this I am not looking forward to. I will work all next week and then prepare for the 23 visitors we will have to the house of the course of the day, hopefully mum will be home to share it with us. I'm pretty sure that they will allow her home at least for the day. I'm also not looking forward to all of the cooking.
This year we changed our Christmas decorations, 'the husband' thought that silver was the colour this year, so all new deco's had to be brought along with a change in colours of the dinner plates, napkins and the like, its allot of work changing your full colour scheme but it looks like we have succeeded.
Well I think that I am all typed out for now, I'm looking forward to trying to read everyones blog, I apologise for not keeping up and commenting on all your blogs.
Friday, December 10, 2010
its my birthday and I can cry if I want too
I'm sitting here typing in my very first post on my brand new laptop that 'the husband' brought me. It takes some getting used to, that's for sure. I can't believe how thoughtful he was getting this for me. Its got nothing to do with him wanting to use the computer for himself or anything, sure, he does love being on the desktop and now I can stop annoying him and kicking him off when I want to just 'play' on my things. Either way, very happy is me about my new laptop :)
Mum is still in the hospital, I really feel like she is finally getting somewhere, she has now 4 blood clots, one in each leg, one in the lung and one in her right arm. They have put in a 'filter' to stop the blood clots from moving, which is a God send. Not sure if I told you that she also broke her leg when she collapsed, which meant that she had to have her ankle pinned, she is now sporting a boot and is not allowed to put any weight on the leg. They also did a gastroscopy which showed that mum had 2 old cysts in her 'somewhere' and next week they will be getting her to shallow some pill shaped camera's to see if they can finally locate the bleed. She also may not be released to home but to a rehab centre until she can use her arms and legs again, which is a good thing but still scary for mum.
As for me, well it was my 42nd birthday today. As I stated before, 'the husband' brought me this laptop, we went to visit my mum in hospital and then out for dinner. My desk was decorated to the sh*t house, could hardly see my computer screen when I got to work. So as the day ends I'm as happy as I can be, 'the husband' ran off to band practice which means we are both blissfully happy tonight.
Chao for now
Mum is still in the hospital, I really feel like she is finally getting somewhere, she has now 4 blood clots, one in each leg, one in the lung and one in her right arm. They have put in a 'filter' to stop the blood clots from moving, which is a God send. Not sure if I told you that she also broke her leg when she collapsed, which meant that she had to have her ankle pinned, she is now sporting a boot and is not allowed to put any weight on the leg. They also did a gastroscopy which showed that mum had 2 old cysts in her 'somewhere' and next week they will be getting her to shallow some pill shaped camera's to see if they can finally locate the bleed. She also may not be released to home but to a rehab centre until she can use her arms and legs again, which is a good thing but still scary for mum.
As for me, well it was my 42nd birthday today. As I stated before, 'the husband' brought me this laptop, we went to visit my mum in hospital and then out for dinner. My desk was decorated to the sh*t house, could hardly see my computer screen when I got to work. So as the day ends I'm as happy as I can be, 'the husband' ran off to band practice which means we are both blissfully happy tonight.
Chao for now
Sunday, December 05, 2010
More drama
Of course there can't be too much happiness here!
After 2 blissful early nights at home after mum came home from the hospital I was awoken by the telephone ringing on Friday morning. Checked the mobile number my pillow, 5.35am, what that can't be right.... must be something wrong..... its mum and dad's number on the phone.
Short story, ambulance called, mum collapsed, hemorrhaging from back passage, ambulance work on her for about an hour before taking her to hospital. I beat her there. Have to call work to tell them 'sorry but I'll be late again', after an hour they bring me in, lost allot of blood, 8 units in total, just under 3 litres, blood pressure crap, going to surgery right now to find the bleed, may not in all seriousness make it out of surgery.
They come back out and down the lift with mum? That's strange she is going to ICU on this floor, why the lift? Turns out they can't find the bleed, taking her to have a CAT scan, still can't find the bleed, reversing the blood thinners for the blood clot, to see what they can do about the bleeding, fine line between saving and killing her.
Mum is taken to ICU again in induced coma, she is woken the next day and tube removed. She starts to talk about a plan in the leg where she fell. Wants something for the pain. The do an x-ray, BROKEN LEG. What's a girl to do when all of the organs have something wrong with them? Start on bones! Mum's says that's why I told the ambulance officers I couldn't walk to the vehicle.
Today she is going to surgery again for the leg, unsure if they are pinning it or not, it looks like she has damaged her foot as well, so plaster may bot be an option due to the weight.
God will it ever end??
Stay tuned for the next chapter.........
Thursday, December 02, 2010
Thanks Guys
I really needed that buck up.
I have been feeling overwhelmed of late, with everything going on with the parents. With Christmas fast approaching, I am a control freak, I don't know if you have noticed that with the parents.
Yesterday I also got the talk at work. The mental health talk. 'we know you have legitimate reasons for being absent 16 days this year, but we need to know you are looking after yourself" mmm mum's been hospitalised 5 times this year, once with me being told to call the family she may not make it through the night, and another where they placed her into an induced coma, not to mention dad being hospitalised twice, one of those the recent heart attack. Am I stressed? Fuck yeah, but you are making it worse!
Work is stressing me because things feel up in the air, we were meant to move to another team, there is a fight over who can control my little party of 4. We are left in the dark. I also was given an opportunity for Quality Assurance, 8 months ago, and still haven't been trained or even started on. Frustrating me to no end.
I am really just over everyone and everything.
On a good note, I got to come straight home last night from work. I finish at 4.30pm, was home just after 5pm and was able to cook dinner. Yay for me. I haven't been home that early in a few weeks.
I do need to work on the exercise goals while I can, work on a Christmas list and I'm sure other things.
Again
THANKS A BUNCH FOR GETTING ME OUT OF THE FUNK AND SHOWING ME THE LOVE
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
why am I so boring?
I know that I am a boring person, I don't have allot of 'real life' friends and now it feels like the blog family is following suit. I may just be feeling sorry for myself but I don't seem to have a very interesting life. One that I don't even want but my must endure.
I'm not feeling any love at all at the moment, from anyone, except the mother of course, she tells me every day, but what happens when she is gone? I will have no purpose anymore.....
I'm not feeling any love at all at the moment, from anyone, except the mother of course, she tells me every day, but what happens when she is gone? I will have no purpose anymore.....
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Time is flying
I can't believe we are 27 days from Christmas!
I have brought 1 present and have 23 people coming over for the feast! I like to have a present for each and everyone that comes to the house, some will get money some will get an actual present. Why does it seem to be harder every year to buy a present?
We have a new challenge happening at work from Monday of the weight loss type. Should be interesting. I am hoping I will have a foot up with all the additional information I learn from my blog friends.
Health of the parents continue to be an issue, one that I will just have to continue to challenge myself with. Mum thinks she is counting down the days until she dies with her blood clot, tried to talk some sense into her, she should be home this week sometime. I have tried to tell her that if the hospital and doctors thought that the blood clot was going to end her life and would require intervention from them, they would not release her. I think it has slowly sunk in, she is starting to plan for Christmas as well. Guess who will be sent to buy the presents? Of course that would be me.
Dad is handling himself quite well after the shock of the heart attack, he tells me he is feeling much better and hasn't had a headache since the heart attack, which he had been having everyday for at least a year.
I am amazed myself that I do not have high blood pressure from all this stress and running around. I think that I am pretty healthy and plan on staying this way. There is no way I want to be like my parents when it come to health issues. As people though they are generous to a fault. Stubborn when they have an idea, and sometimes even cruel to each other. But in the end, they stick together and will not let anyone go without.
Well on that note, I must wake 'the husband' and subject him to shopping at Ikea......
I have brought 1 present and have 23 people coming over for the feast! I like to have a present for each and everyone that comes to the house, some will get money some will get an actual present. Why does it seem to be harder every year to buy a present?
We have a new challenge happening at work from Monday of the weight loss type. Should be interesting. I am hoping I will have a foot up with all the additional information I learn from my blog friends.
Health of the parents continue to be an issue, one that I will just have to continue to challenge myself with. Mum thinks she is counting down the days until she dies with her blood clot, tried to talk some sense into her, she should be home this week sometime. I have tried to tell her that if the hospital and doctors thought that the blood clot was going to end her life and would require intervention from them, they would not release her. I think it has slowly sunk in, she is starting to plan for Christmas as well. Guess who will be sent to buy the presents? Of course that would be me.
Dad is handling himself quite well after the shock of the heart attack, he tells me he is feeling much better and hasn't had a headache since the heart attack, which he had been having everyday for at least a year.
I am amazed myself that I do not have high blood pressure from all this stress and running around. I think that I am pretty healthy and plan on staying this way. There is no way I want to be like my parents when it come to health issues. As people though they are generous to a fault. Stubborn when they have an idea, and sometimes even cruel to each other. But in the end, they stick together and will not let anyone go without.
Well on that note, I must wake 'the husband' and subject him to shopping at Ikea......
Friday, November 26, 2010
Happier today
Today I am happier than I have been for a little while.
Weight this morning was good, which is a pleasant surprise.
Dad had surgery yesterday after much woo haa, he argued with the doctors, threatened to leave early but in the end had the surgery and found that he had 3 blockages, they have placed 2 stent's so far, its dangerous to do 3 in one go, and will have to return to do another procedure in about 6 weeks. That makes me feel like he was a ticking time bomb. Mum is relieved as well so that's good. However mum is still having troubles, her blood clot is on the move, the blood thinners are making her life a little harder as she has skin tears all the time. Still in isolation because of the shingles as well. She is starting to get really down, thinking that the blood clot is a death sentence, I have printed out some info that shows only 3% chance of a bad outcome, and since she fought for her life back in December 09 and won, I think that she has a few years left to live.
As for me again, exercise was very little however the running around work and the hospitals must equal quite a few kilometers per day. Weight this morning was down at 200.4 which is GREAT compared to my last weigh in.
That's it for me, short and sweet, have to get the house work done before tomorrow when the craziness of my life starts again. Have a good one
Weight this morning was good, which is a pleasant surprise.
Dad had surgery yesterday after much woo haa, he argued with the doctors, threatened to leave early but in the end had the surgery and found that he had 3 blockages, they have placed 2 stent's so far, its dangerous to do 3 in one go, and will have to return to do another procedure in about 6 weeks. That makes me feel like he was a ticking time bomb. Mum is relieved as well so that's good. However mum is still having troubles, her blood clot is on the move, the blood thinners are making her life a little harder as she has skin tears all the time. Still in isolation because of the shingles as well. She is starting to get really down, thinking that the blood clot is a death sentence, I have printed out some info that shows only 3% chance of a bad outcome, and since she fought for her life back in December 09 and won, I think that she has a few years left to live.
As for me again, exercise was very little however the running around work and the hospitals must equal quite a few kilometers per day. Weight this morning was down at 200.4 which is GREAT compared to my last weigh in.
That's it for me, short and sweet, have to get the house work done before tomorrow when the craziness of my life starts again. Have a good one
Thursday, November 25, 2010
quick update
Well both parents still in the hospital.
One's resigned to the fact she'll be staying until at least next week.
The other, well he is being painful. Dad was told in emergency days in hospital, that was Monday night, which to my calculations means something like Saturday. We have to vote on Saturday. He gets told by another doctor Friday and he is sticking with that day. He has had a fight with the doctor, with fingers flying, accusations being made left right and centre and now he refuses to stay even to Friday. He wants to be taken home tonight, Thursday, again my calculations that is day 3.
So I have already started negotiations with him and the nursing staff that are trying to save his life, to try and talk him in to staying but he thinks he knows best and can control the public health system.
One's resigned to the fact she'll be staying until at least next week.
The other, well he is being painful. Dad was told in emergency days in hospital, that was Monday night, which to my calculations means something like Saturday. We have to vote on Saturday. He gets told by another doctor Friday and he is sticking with that day. He has had a fight with the doctor, with fingers flying, accusations being made left right and centre and now he refuses to stay even to Friday. He wants to be taken home tonight, Thursday, again my calculations that is day 3.
So I have already started negotiations with him and the nursing staff that are trying to save his life, to try and talk him in to staying but he thinks he knows best and can control the public health system.
Monday, November 22, 2010
I give up, stick a fork in me, I'm done
OK, food is not going good.
As you know my world has been rocked by mum going into hospital and changing any plans I may have had, well brace yourself.
Dad's also in hospital as of tonight, the verdict.
People stick a fork in me, I'm done!
How much more can these poor parents take?
And the killer for me is that they are on 2 different levels at the hospital, at each end of the hospital.
So, my food for the past few days have been what ever I can grab at the hospital cafe, not great, but some days its all I fit in. Water, Pepsi Max, Coffee, all not great. Sorry, I even failed at the weigh in at 203.5 which is up in last week. Maybe I should just bow out gracefully?
I don't bloody know anymore, I'm just over it for now. Time to collapse into bed. Bye for now...
As you know my world has been rocked by mum going into hospital and changing any plans I may have had, well brace yourself.
Dad's also in hospital as of tonight, the verdict.
Heart Attack!
People stick a fork in me, I'm done!
How much more can these poor parents take?
And the killer for me is that they are on 2 different levels at the hospital, at each end of the hospital.
So, my food for the past few days have been what ever I can grab at the hospital cafe, not great, but some days its all I fit in. Water, Pepsi Max, Coffee, all not great. Sorry, I even failed at the weigh in at 203.5 which is up in last week. Maybe I should just bow out gracefully?
I don't bloody know anymore, I'm just over it for now. Time to collapse into bed. Bye for now...
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Life changes
That's right, my life is changing for a while. Mum's coming to stay at our place once released from hospital. There is allot of craziness at her house at the moment that she doesn't want any part of so she will be staying here. So that has meant kicking 'the husband' out of one of the rooms he uses, he says for guitar building, I say for crap storing to make room for a new bed to go into the room. It took awhile to get the crap/guitar building stuff out and we are picking up the bed today for the room and setting it up. Mum is/should be released on Monday so it will be all ready for her.
I've been my busy self, going to the hospital daily to see her, no one else has, they are all scared of catching her shingles however unless you come into contact with the fluid from the wound or touch her were she may have coming into contact with it without washing her hands of it say, you can not catch it. If anything, if you haven't had the chickenpox, you could catch that if you came into contact the said fluid. I think its all just an excuse, my family is shit when it comes to looking after mum. I am the youngest and am always 'on call' as it may be.
So in saying how busy I have been, my meals haven't been great, not that I have had over indulgences, I have had eaten on the run, what I can when I can, fluid, well I have tried and tried to remember to drink, but sometimes I think my intake has been less than required. Exercise, well, I have been walking allot, around the hospital and car park, the corridors in that hospital are a killer! But not in the treadmill for at least a week and a bit form when I was ill and now with mum, forget about it.
Yesterday while nicking down the store for my dad, I couldn't believe my eyes but Santa came into town with all his hoo haa of a band playing, fairies and the like on stilts, for God sakes people its still NOVEMBER!
I have done nothing in the way of Christmas shopping, will probably end up waiting for a week or two before the big day for the pressie shopping, I hate that though, normally I'm so very organised but feel a little out of control here........
I've been my busy self, going to the hospital daily to see her, no one else has, they are all scared of catching her shingles however unless you come into contact with the fluid from the wound or touch her were she may have coming into contact with it without washing her hands of it say, you can not catch it. If anything, if you haven't had the chickenpox, you could catch that if you came into contact the said fluid. I think its all just an excuse, my family is shit when it comes to looking after mum. I am the youngest and am always 'on call' as it may be.
So in saying how busy I have been, my meals haven't been great, not that I have had over indulgences, I have had eaten on the run, what I can when I can, fluid, well I have tried and tried to remember to drink, but sometimes I think my intake has been less than required. Exercise, well, I have been walking allot, around the hospital and car park, the corridors in that hospital are a killer! But not in the treadmill for at least a week and a bit form when I was ill and now with mum, forget about it.
Yesterday while nicking down the store for my dad, I couldn't believe my eyes but Santa came into town with all his hoo haa of a band playing, fairies and the like on stilts, for God sakes people its still NOVEMBER!
I have done nothing in the way of Christmas shopping, will probably end up waiting for a week or two before the big day for the pressie shopping, I hate that though, normally I'm so very organised but feel a little out of control here........
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
flying post
not much has changed in my world. Mum's still in hospital, hopefully out before the weekend. New developments are she has some liver function issues to go along with her kidney function issues, as well as developing a blood clot in her leg, Deep Vein Thrombosis. Much joy going around, now she wants to plan her funeral since she has something wrong with just about every organ in her body. I can understand that but obviously don't want to face the fact that she could be right.
I also came to the conclusion after starting my 3rd 1 litre bottle last night that I don't think I am drinking enough water. At home it wasn't such a problem but at work I can't have a bottle straped to my face all day. So I have to put in a conserted effort to make sure I am DRINKING enough.
Ok, off to work again, be good and play safe
I also came to the conclusion after starting my 3rd 1 litre bottle last night that I don't think I am drinking enough water. At home it wasn't such a problem but at work I can't have a bottle straped to my face all day. So I have to put in a conserted effort to make sure I am DRINKING enough.
Ok, off to work again, be good and play safe
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
3.02
That's right, 3.02am, in the morning, still dark, everyone in the place is sleeping, except me!
Don't know if its stress thing, I do tend to stress over money all the time, never have enough in the bank/wallet, however on paper there should be heaps of the stuff. Maybe its the mum thing, always stressing she's not being treated well and how to get her out of the situation.
Just want to sleep ................
Don't know if its stress thing, I do tend to stress over money all the time, never have enough in the bank/wallet, however on paper there should be heaps of the stuff. Maybe its the mum thing, always stressing she's not being treated well and how to get her out of the situation.
Just want to sleep ................
Monday, November 15, 2010
Hell of a week
This is going to be right up there with the other hell weeks that I have when mum's in hospital. I will go to work7.45am , knock off at 4.30, hit mum and dad's by 5pm, pick up washing and ironing, head to the hospital to see mum by 6pm (through peak hour traffic) leave the hospital by 7.30-8pm when visiting hours finish, head home, cook tea, do dishes, do washing and ironing, put it in 'the husband' car to drop to 'the nephew' to take home (they work together). And then it all starts again for another day!
So forgive me if I don't post allot this week while mum's in the hospital :{
So forgive me if I don't post allot this week while mum's in the hospital :{
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Not much to share so .....
I'm going to show you some things I'm going to show the new cherry tomatoes that I'm growing in the efforts to be self sufficient ....
Also I made 2 lots of tomato sauce the other day, 1 was spicy and the other was more a sweet ketchup.
Today I weighed in at 201.9, which isn't bad by all accounts since I started the DDC2 challenge at 203 pounds, so that's a loss of just slightly over a pound, could have been better but I'll take it.
My throat is still sore and makes me cough a fair amount so keeping her nice and lubricated by drinking bucket loads. Exercise has been a little none existent for the last couple of days with the sinusitis, breathing has been an issue as you could imagine. Now with mum back in the hospital, well, the corridors are really long .....
Yesterday when I got to the hospital, mum was still in emergency waiting for a room to become available, since she needs to be isolated due to the shingles still being contagious, she needed a single room, she still hadn't eaten or drunk anything but water since I had left the day before, remembering that I took her to the hospital at approx 4pm and I arrived the next day at 11am! Lucky I stopped off to get her a feta and spinach twist from the bakery. Once I knew her heart rate was back to normal I proceeded to buy her a coffee, well actually 2 coffee's, she loves her coffee. As I was going back to her room, the ambulance drivers were like 'it must be my lucky day' and 'oh thanks for the coffee', of course I laughed about it. But before I even made it to mum's room, the nurse said she couldn't have coffee! They had tried for hours last night to get her heart rate back to normal and weren't taking any chances with the coffee. Fair enough, so it became the ambulance drivers 'lucky' day. After all I couldn't drink 3 coffee's! I think they were astonished that someone would bring them coffee, they had nothing to do with me, hadn't saved me or my family from some horrific accident, but you know what, they probably did that morning or were going to some time that day, a little bit of kindness goes along way I think.
Well that's it for me today, or until something else happens today that I think is blog worthy. Have a great day and read you soon
Also I made 2 lots of tomato sauce the other day, 1 was spicy and the other was more a sweet ketchup.
Today I weighed in at 201.9, which isn't bad by all accounts since I started the DDC2 challenge at 203 pounds, so that's a loss of just slightly over a pound, could have been better but I'll take it.My throat is still sore and makes me cough a fair amount so keeping her nice and lubricated by drinking bucket loads. Exercise has been a little none existent for the last couple of days with the sinusitis, breathing has been an issue as you could imagine. Now with mum back in the hospital, well, the corridors are really long .....
Yesterday when I got to the hospital, mum was still in emergency waiting for a room to become available, since she needs to be isolated due to the shingles still being contagious, she needed a single room, she still hadn't eaten or drunk anything but water since I had left the day before, remembering that I took her to the hospital at approx 4pm and I arrived the next day at 11am! Lucky I stopped off to get her a feta and spinach twist from the bakery. Once I knew her heart rate was back to normal I proceeded to buy her a coffee, well actually 2 coffee's, she loves her coffee. As I was going back to her room, the ambulance drivers were like 'it must be my lucky day' and 'oh thanks for the coffee', of course I laughed about it. But before I even made it to mum's room, the nurse said she couldn't have coffee! They had tried for hours last night to get her heart rate back to normal and weren't taking any chances with the coffee. Fair enough, so it became the ambulance drivers 'lucky' day. After all I couldn't drink 3 coffee's! I think they were astonished that someone would bring them coffee, they had nothing to do with me, hadn't saved me or my family from some horrific accident, but you know what, they probably did that morning or were going to some time that day, a little bit of kindness goes along way I think.
Well that's it for me today, or until something else happens today that I think is blog worthy. Have a great day and read you soon
Saturday, November 13, 2010
You just won't believe my life - DON'T LOOK IF YOUR EATING!
So I went down to mum's yesterday, I knew the doctor had told her she had shingles, its been about 3 weeks since they told her, it is contagious but I was with her before she even found out about them so if I was going to catch it, it would have happened by now. So she has been complaining about the pain, she also has cellulitis on one of her legs so finding everything very uncomfortable.
When I got there and saw under the bandage I couldn't believe the difference from the water blisters to this! Coupled along with her breathing, I was not taking any chances and funny enough, she was quite compliant and came to the hospital with me. We thought that she was going to be coming home but the bloods told us otherwise. Her kidney function from 2 weeks ago was 33, last night was 23, her potassium was too high also and she was in Atrial fibrillation (AF), causing her heart to be 'disorganized'. So again I had to leave her there, again.
What makes me mad is that she was at the hospital 2 days before to get the dressing redone and the nurse said "I don't like those black spots" but did nothing! It all started, she has been told this is a coincidence, the day after she placed 'Deep Heat' on her hip to sooth some joint pain, she has used it a million times and not had an issue, the day after it raised up like burns. Hence why she didn't think it would be anything contagious. Even last night whilst they were looking at the shingles, keeping her isolated, no one bothered to look at her leg, for all I know that is infected and maybe where all the infection is coming from. I never got to see the leg as it was already fully wrapped up. I left the hospital after 9pm last night and am calling the hospital whilst typing this post.
Ok, the hospital advise that they want to do a cat scan and ultrasound of her abdomen due to the blood clots on her stomach wound. They are still yet to look at her leg, just wanting for the medical team to come around. They want to further investigate her chest after the chest x-ray that was preformed last night. They still have her in Emergency as she isn't stable enough to move her to a medical ward, oh and she is still in AF.
Phew, and I just thought it was a little infection from the shingles.
We live in such a lucky country when it comes to illness. Mum's been admitted to hospital 4 times this year alone, we do not need to pay for anything at all. We do not need to worry if we have insurance or if they would cover the tests. We have Medicare in Australia that looks after all that.
As for me, well the sinusitis is hanging on as long as it can, water intake has been pretty good, although I wasn't great with tracking it, I know I would have drunk my allotted amount if not more. Food on the other hand was not great but would have been well under my allotted 1650 calories. Well better be off to drink more water and maybe even eat something.
When I got there and saw under the bandage I couldn't believe the difference from the water blisters to this! Coupled along with her breathing, I was not taking any chances and funny enough, she was quite compliant and came to the hospital with me. We thought that she was going to be coming home but the bloods told us otherwise. Her kidney function from 2 weeks ago was 33, last night was 23, her potassium was too high also and she was in Atrial fibrillation (AF), causing her heart to be 'disorganized'. So again I had to leave her there, again.
What makes me mad is that she was at the hospital 2 days before to get the dressing redone and the nurse said "I don't like those black spots" but did nothing! It all started, she has been told this is a coincidence, the day after she placed 'Deep Heat' on her hip to sooth some joint pain, she has used it a million times and not had an issue, the day after it raised up like burns. Hence why she didn't think it would be anything contagious. Even last night whilst they were looking at the shingles, keeping her isolated, no one bothered to look at her leg, for all I know that is infected and maybe where all the infection is coming from. I never got to see the leg as it was already fully wrapped up. I left the hospital after 9pm last night and am calling the hospital whilst typing this post.
Ok, the hospital advise that they want to do a cat scan and ultrasound of her abdomen due to the blood clots on her stomach wound. They are still yet to look at her leg, just wanting for the medical team to come around. They want to further investigate her chest after the chest x-ray that was preformed last night. They still have her in Emergency as she isn't stable enough to move her to a medical ward, oh and she is still in AF.Phew, and I just thought it was a little infection from the shingles.
We live in such a lucky country when it comes to illness. Mum's been admitted to hospital 4 times this year alone, we do not need to pay for anything at all. We do not need to worry if we have insurance or if they would cover the tests. We have Medicare in Australia that looks after all that.
As for me, well the sinusitis is hanging on as long as it can, water intake has been pretty good, although I wasn't great with tracking it, I know I would have drunk my allotted amount if not more. Food on the other hand was not great but would have been well under my allotted 1650 calories. Well better be off to drink more water and maybe even eat something.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Back in the land of the living
It feels like the sinusitis monster has finally moved on...
could be lurking around the corner waiting for the cough from hell to arrive
but at least he is around the corner for now and something to celebrate!
So I am off to work today after 3 days at home, at least I have been able to monitor my drinking over the last 3 days and now know that it is not impossible to drink what I need to, to enable the weight loss.
I am a little depressed though over some money things and the fact that it is make my trip to the States difficult, but I will continue to forge through.
could be lurking around the corner waiting for the cough from hell to arrive
but at least he is around the corner for now and something to celebrate!
So I am off to work today after 3 days at home, at least I have been able to monitor my drinking over the last 3 days and now know that it is not impossible to drink what I need to, to enable the weight loss.
I am a little depressed though over some money things and the fact that it is make my trip to the States difficult, but I will continue to forge through.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Wednesday food and FLUID
Todays fluid intake was huge and still going. Before 'the husband' tipped out the jug of water I had been measuring I was at 3.8 litres and opened a can of Pepsi Max for another 375ml so that takes me over 4.2 litres (142 oz) today and with this throat, there will be more to come that's for sure. Food has gone over slightly today, but I think I can make that up over the next couple of days. I haven't felt up to exercising today so will give it a miss but make that up also over the next few days. I hope everyone else on the challenge had a great day and those not on the challenge as well.
| Breakfast | Calories | ||||
| Generic - Coffee With Skim Milk and Sugar, 18 to 8 oz | 90 | | |||
| Tomato - Raw, Red, 4 slices | 44 | | |||
| Eggs - Fried (whole egg), 2 large | 185 | | |||
| 319 | |||||
| Lunch | |||||
| Generic - Coffee With Skim Milk and Sugar, 6 to 8 oz | 30 | | |||
| Vietnamese Beef Noodle Soup - Pho, 1 Bowl | 367 | | |||
| | 397 | ||||
| Dinner | |||||
| Woolworths (Aus) - Beef Sausages With Herb and Garlic, 2 Sausages (170g) | 445 | | |||
| Generic - Baked Potato - Jacket Potato W/ Skin, 1 medium (173 g) | 280 | | |||
| Veg - Frozens Peas, 2/3 cup | 70 | | |||
| No Name (Superstore) - Whole Kernal Corn, 1/2 cup | 80 | | |||
| Butter - Salted, 1.5 tbsp | 153 | | |||
| | 1,028 | ||||
1,744 | |||||
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| Here's a picture of my sandstone monk from our front garden | |||||
so sick
OMG I can't believe how sick I am at the moment. My sinusitis is kicking my butt! It all went down hill Monday night after eating a really nice meal I cooked of Thai style chicken on a bed of basmati rice, 1 lemonade icy pole later, and bang, 8.30pm my throat closes over and the face starts to hurt. The next day its all over red rover. Fully blown sinusitis out of the blue, kicking you fully in the butt. I even got up this morning at 2am cause I couldn't sleep. My throat was so sore since I'm breathing through my mouth through the night cause I can't breath at all through my nose at all, nasal spray, tissues, cough lollies (damn I will have to check the calorie count in the lollies) and some water and I'm able to go back to sleep for a bit.
My fear again has come back on the treadmill. No matter what I do or how many times I do it, I just can't seem to run on the treadmill. Before I know it, I've increased the speed, slowly jogging, and then I'm standing on the side of the treadmill again. I try to talk to myself to keep it going but again and again I did it yesterday. Maybe its cause I'm sick that I don't trust myself?? Maybe its just that and I have to wait until I'm a bit better to try running again.
Water, well lucky enough, water and fluid has been my friend since I'm sick and when I look to the Phase 2 list of fluid, I must admit I don't have it as bad as some others on that list at 200oz, when I only need to drink 96oz to lose the weight at 111oz to max it. I worked out that 96oz is actually 12 cans of Pepsi Max, which of course I will not only drink but when you put it that way, sure I could drink that much *cough grumble grumble* but it also is only 4-5 of my water bottles which isn't that bad either. I just went to make myself a hot coffee and decided for today at least to fill a jug with the same amount of liquid I am having in say the 2 coffees I have had so far today and I have had up to 700mls (23oz) thus far and its only 9.13am, I think I can kick 96oz in the butt as well. Here I was originally reading Allan post about having to drink this whole heap of fluid and I must admit I was panicked. I thought there was no way, but now that he has worked it out for us its not that big a mountain. Thanks Allan.
So off I go now to lounge on the couch with a box of tissues and my fluids. Oh and yesterdays food is below:
My fear again has come back on the treadmill. No matter what I do or how many times I do it, I just can't seem to run on the treadmill. Before I know it, I've increased the speed, slowly jogging, and then I'm standing on the side of the treadmill again. I try to talk to myself to keep it going but again and again I did it yesterday. Maybe its cause I'm sick that I don't trust myself?? Maybe its just that and I have to wait until I'm a bit better to try running again.
Water, well lucky enough, water and fluid has been my friend since I'm sick and when I look to the Phase 2 list of fluid, I must admit I don't have it as bad as some others on that list at 200oz, when I only need to drink 96oz to lose the weight at 111oz to max it. I worked out that 96oz is actually 12 cans of Pepsi Max, which of course I will not only drink but when you put it that way, sure I could drink that much *cough grumble grumble* but it also is only 4-5 of my water bottles which isn't that bad either. I just went to make myself a hot coffee and decided for today at least to fill a jug with the same amount of liquid I am having in say the 2 coffees I have had so far today and I have had up to 700mls (23oz) thus far and its only 9.13am, I think I can kick 96oz in the butt as well. Here I was originally reading Allan post about having to drink this whole heap of fluid and I must admit I was panicked. I thought there was no way, but now that he has worked it out for us its not that big a mountain. Thanks Allan.
So off I go now to lounge on the couch with a box of tissues and my fluids. Oh and yesterdays food is below:
| Breakfast | Calories | ||||
| Generic - Coffee With Skim Milk and Sugar, 6 to 8 oz | 30 | ||||
| Eggs - Fried (whole egg), 2 large | 185 | ||||
| Tomato - Raw, Red, 4 slices | 44 | ||||
| Easiyo Yoghurt - Strawberries and Cream, 0.1 cup | 22 | ||||
| 281 | |||||
| Lunch | |||||
| Salad - Greek Salad W/ Fetta and Tomato, 1 container (3 media ea.) | 450 | ||||
| 450 | |||||
| Dinner | |||||
| Red Rooster - Classic Roast , 560 g | 644 | ||||
| 644 | |||||
| Snacks | |||||
| Nuts - Cashew nuts, raw, 10 g | 55 | ||||
| Nestle - Icy Pole - Lemonade, 80 g | 45 | ||||
| Generic - Almonds - Raw, Whole, Each , 15 each | 110 | ||||
| Generic - Walnut Halves, 5.6 walnut halves/1 0z | 76 | ||||
| 286 | |||||
| Total | 1,661 | ||||
Monday, November 08, 2010
Todays food :)
| Accountable - I'm really happy with my choices today, still have some calories left and haven't even exercised for the day, but will jump on the treadmill tonight and see how I will go with the running again. Breakfast | Calories | |||||
| Eggs - Hard Boiled Egg (Large), 2 large egg | 140 | | ||||
| Twinings - Lemon & Ginger Tea (Correct), 1 bag | 2 | | ||||
| 142 | ||||||
| Lunch | ||||||
| Aldi - Bakers Life - White Sandwich Bread, 2 Slices | 144 | | ||||
| Kraft - Singles American Cheese Sandwich Slices, 1 slice | 80 | | ||||
| Lettuce - Green leaf, raw, 2 cup shredded | 11 | | ||||
| 235 | ||||||
| Dinner | ||||||
| Meat - Chicken Breast, Skinless, Boneless, 0.4 pound | 199 | | ||||
| Homemade - Basmati Rice, 150 gr | 524 | | ||||
| 723 | ||||||
| Snacks | ||||||
| Twinings - Lemon & Ginger Tea (Correct), 1 bag | 2 | |||||
| Generic - Coffee With Skim Milk and Sugar, 18 to 8 oz | 90 | |||||
| Generic - Strawberries - Fresh, 80 g | 40 | |||||
| Easiyo Yoghurt - Strawberries and Cream, 0.4 cup | 89 | |||||
| 221 | ||||||
| Totals | 1,321 | |||||
| Your Daily Goal | 1,661 | |||||
| Remaining | 340 | |||||
Sunday, November 07, 2010
PROUD
I just ran on the treadmill! This is a fear I have had forever cause I thought I would fall off and injure myself, but I did it, I ran at 7 km per hour for 1 minute, twice!
I'm really happy and this gives me something to work on, to better myself and my endurance.
So in honor of my 'I can't freakin believe I ran on the treadmill', here is a happy dance........
I'm really happy and this gives me something to work on, to better myself and my endurance.
So in honor of my 'I can't freakin believe I ran on the treadmill', here is a happy dance........
Another night out
This must be the beginning of the silly season. I haven't been out so often in years. Last night was to The Comic's Lounge where we saw Hung L (he was in the original Wog Boy movie) and was extremely funny, as we Gab Rossi and Drew Rokos. It was all in aid of Miss Patty's birthday. Dinner was first at a little restaurant which I got to see the menu in advance at work and couldn't get the idea of a roasted vegetable pizza out of my mind, so of course I ordered it. When it came I was slightly disappointed. It did not live up to my expectations. Someone said, don't worry the taste will knock your socks off. Well they were wrong!I don't know how many calories were in that but what ever they were, I don't think they were worth it. In saying that the pizza was a very think crisp pizza with little tomato sauce and a spare amount of sliced zucchini (not even long ways like my imagination told me they would be) less than 1 red capsicum was used to make the roasted capsicum portion and the egg plant was, well it just was. I drank water there at the restaurant and only had 1 missed drink at the show of Tequila and lemonade, 2 cokes and water when I got home.
It would have been a good food day, had my mother not come over. I can't help but indulge my mother. If she wants something, I will bend over backwards to get it for her. It used to be roasted vegetable focaccia with Salami, then it went to the Pizza Sub and Subway and now its potato cakes from my local 'fish and chip' shop. Needless to say, 3 potato cakes later.........
I have been drinking allot of herbal tea lately, the newest being Twining's Lemon and Ginger, as far as tea goes, its quite good, its 5 calories to a cup and I do believe ginger is a good thing for helping with metabolism as well, don't know about it's help in tea but its all worth a go.
Next week we don't appear to have any engagements but the week after that we have another wedding, this time it's a New Zealanders wedding so that could spell disaster for the the diet, as they are known for the hangi, the drinking, the huka and the Eskimo kiss's. Then the next day is a Tupperware party and you know that there is always going to be too much food, although the host is also on a diet so maybe that will be OK.
1 week later its the work Christmas party which still unsure if I will attend as its 'without' partners.
2 weeks later it is my birthday, which I haven't anything planned for at the moment.
Exercise is going good, as I previously stated, I have cleaned up and off the treadmill and she's getting used daily, along with my resistance band. All guns are now blazing.
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